9/23/2001

I'm sitting here trying to come up with an ethical issue. I guess my big thing for the day is egoism. This is advancing oneself at the pain of others. I have never been much of an egotist and I sometimes wish I were more of one. I tend to be an altruist helping people out whether or not I get any benefit from it or not. I wish I could convince myself that I was worth the effort. I generally have low-self esteem and put other's needs before mine. I do however tend to help other out more when they return the efforts I give them. I try to think of myself as what the book calls a reciprocist. I do at times tend to be a sucker helping out those who don't deserve it and at great expense to myself.

found some more writing

down to earth to what is now and current and real. I went for a short hike today and meditated on a bench. I let my thought just listen to the sounds of nature free and easy within myself. I took a map had lunch not necessarily in that order and came back to here and now where I am. I emptied my cup so to speak and tried to just listen as people talked about what we were doing here in our writing session. so, ok why the fear of self disclosure? more so, why the fear of looking into myself? or is that just my own stubbornness? letting those walls down can be very scary for me unless there is a great amount of trust between myself and those I am sharing myself with, I remain a closed book. the whip cracks keep writing I say. The siege engines prepare themselves the ladders are thrown down and the war begins. Is it between me myself and i or the world and myself? Isn't the world supposed to be a peaceful place though? at least now we wish it was.

more recycling of blog posts

Proprioceptive Writing
Category: Art and Photography
Bunny-highway-stream of consciousness~long trail. I was hiking one day and I came to a fork in the road not knowing which way to go I went.....

Back in the day my Imagination would run wild and Rampant, like a forest fire almost. destructive and working with a natural force out of control.

I stopped there to consider which way to go next, my mental path zigzaging between hazards and oh the place you'll go. An escape, or a journey of adventure.

To philcon I say! may the world of darkness keep at bay yet follow my true souls journey into the world of undeath. preserve my humanity, but let the white wolves howl let them like mad at the moon. unleash the beast within and without.

Into the night my soul screams flying soaring enlivining my soul and bringing to the front everything that i have been thinking and feeling then shutting down bring the circle to a close letting the adreline subside.


Starting freshly with an odd scent of flowers.


Flowers of happiness and the old stories of the zeks."

we dont need no education!

(helicopter in background)

(beat)

When we grew up and went to school
There were certain teachers who would hurt the children any way they could

A boring ready region upon anything we did exposing every weakness how the kid did bye the kid (laughter)

Out in the middle of nowhere
they were at home at night
their fat and psychopathic wives would beat them,
to within inches of their lives

(beat)

We don’t need no education
We don’t need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the class room
Teachers leave those kids alone
(yells) Hey, teachers! Leave those kids alone!

All in all, it's just a
Nother brick in the wall

All in all, you're just a
Nother brick in the wall

(british kids)
We don’t need no education
We don’t need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the class room
Teachers leave those kids alone
(yells) Hey, teachers! Leave those kids alone!

All in all, it's just a
Nother brick in the wall
All in all, you're just a
Nother brick in the wall

(beat)

If u dont eat ur meat u kant have ne pudding
How kan u have any pudding if u dont eat ur meat

If u dont eat ur meat u kant have ne pudding
How kan u have any pudding if u dont eat ur meat

If u dont eat ur meat u kant have ne pudding
How kan u have any pudding if u dont eat ur meat

(kids screaming)
(beeping)

Starting School and A New Job

I am starting school next week at www.champlain.edu. I am in their software development certificate program. I am taking a class in javascript and in relational database.

 I also got a job recently at www.hrpstaffing.com as a executive recruiter. I get to look for people to fill positions in hospitals.  I put some ads out today for jobs that are in our database. I can make some really big commissions for filling these jobs.

Road Trip

I took a road trip with a friend from Vermont to Georgia to Chicago and back to Vermont again. I was on this trip for ten days. I had a good time and it was good to see the country. I saw lots of things like an underground falls and a u2 concert. I also have lots of pictures of this plantation in Georgia that was very beautiful. I saw some crocodiles up close there.  I am ready to start work on something, what I don't know yet. I have a couple ideas for an it project and I've applied to some jobs. When I wasn't driving I did some studying for my online C++ class on the road. I now know what a pointer is. I also read some about classes in C++ programming. I have some other concepts thoroughly embedded in my head.  I was exhausted after my trip though and slept for a really long time. I hope to connect with some contacts in Connecticut to work on a small project in C++ so that I may better understand the programming language. I want to do a simple text adventure game with descriptions and a map. The course work I am doing through http://www.gameinstitute.com  has a bare bones outline of such an RPG game, I just want to do something a bit more complicated. Anyway, I will post a link to the game here. I hope to get it done by August 29th when classes start back up at Champlain College here in Burlington, Vermont. I am taking classes there towards a Certificate in Software Development. I hope to graduate by Spring of 2012.

took some time off

I have been taking some time off from responsblity since the spring semester at champlain college ended 3 weeks ago. I have some classwork to do through www.gameinstitute.com. I need to get going on that pretty soon. I mostly have been playing everquest drawn in by the free time they offered due to some hackers taking over the system and hacking all the players information for more on that: http://www.soe.com/securityupdate/index.vm?locale=en_US.

Munchkins

Ding Dong! The Witch is dead. Which old Witch? The Wicked Witch!

Ding Dong! The Wicked Witch is dead.

Wake up - sleepy head, rub your eyes, get out of bed.

Wake up, the Wicked Witch is dead. She's gone where the goblins go,

Below - below - below. Yo-ho, let's open up and sing and ring the bells out.

Ding Dong' the merry-oh, sing it high, sing it low.

Let them know

The Wicked Witch is dead!

Mayor

As Mayor of the Munchkin City, In the County of the Land of Oz, I welcome you most regally.

Barrister

But we've got to verify it legally, to see

Mayor

To see?

Barrister

If she

Mayor

If she?

Barrister

Is morally, ethic'lly

Father No.1

Spiritually, physically

Father No. 2

Positively, absolutely

Munchkins

Undeniably and reliably Dead

Coroner

As Coroner I must aver, I thoroughly examined her.

And she's not only merely dead, she's really most sincerely dead.

Mayor

Then this is a day of Independence For all the Munchkins and their descendants

Barrister

If any.

Mayor

Yes, let the joyous news be spread The wicked Old Witch at last id dead!


From: http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/thewizardofoz/dingdongthewitchisdead.htm

A new resume

I put a new resume online. I am going to get rid of the resume bucket link. http://www.scribd.com/doc/53112544/Resume

“A project is complete when it starts working for you, rather than you working for it.” ---Scott Allen

Crunch time!

End of the semester and lots of homework. I am in a software development certificate program at Champlain College and currently behind in my studies. I am waiting in the computer lab for a tutor who hopefully will help me catch up.